Well, I think all will end well

It has been a very long week for me, but, with all due respect to everything, I feel much better now, despite the stress from work, and some personal dramas, I feel lighter now. I mean, I'm happier now, I feel alright and somehow, stronger... I think, I maybe a little bit of paranoid, taking things too heavily. But one thing that got me to in a good mood or should I say a good realization is that, my co-teacher told me this: "Magsasaya nalang ako, kahit marami ang mga problema kasi, malungkot ka na nga, malungkot pa ako, wala nang mangyayari sa atin, kaya magsaya ka na rin..." Hearing that, maybe I should give myself a chance, and also maybe I was being too sadistic to myself as well. I don't really have to deprive of myself with hapiness as much as I am already depriving myself with food (I am doing that because I am on a STRICT DIET.). Also, I realized, I am still surrounded with good people in my environment. But let us not forget to keep our guards up, for you may never know... Anyhow, let's just go with the flow and hang-on to our faith maybe in time, All will end well :-)

The countdown begins...Now!

Well, here come's another week, guess what there are five more days before we totally end classes, and that means five more days before I don't see my students regularly or maybe even for good. You see, I have already made-up my mind, and I don't want to be inconsiderate, I have heard some unbecoming of a person from the other side and I have also weighed things down. I have now come to a decision...

I am still walking on thin ice. Also, remembering the conversations in the past, It should be a challenge for me to prove so many people wrong, about our professionalism, about why professionals like us don't last in an institution to where we are right now. In my case I am not after the amount of compensation, but more on sustainability plus, the fulfillment I have earned through this year of work is definitely...priceless!

But what made me unhappy? Maybe depression, perhaps, ignorance, or maybe irresponsibility on my end. Either way, not only that, but like what I have said previously, I definitely felt for my colleagues who are standing on the same ground with me, and to add-up, we felt neglected and cheated by what was agreed upon from the beginning we set foot on this vocation. But that may not make things go easy. All I am doing now, is to pray for those who are concerned, involved, responsible, and especially those who are obviously, at fault. I have nothing againts anyone. In fact, I am not in regret to where we are now.

And now, for my decision? Well, let's say I will be safe with my answer, I am going to say that, As long as THEY haven't fixed the PROBLEM, I am open for the idea of LEAVING. But, in the minute the PROBLEM gets fixed and I get what is rightfully mine, then, let's say that I will be fulfilling my promise to STAY for another year with no strings attached.

You get me do you? With that, Let's just pray for the Best and may the best of our interests prevail in the end :-)

A Displeased Treat

Well, today's a new start of the week...It could have been a good start, almost. Well, I felt bad and guilty but furious and frustrated. I just don't know how I should explain this without being too specific but, let me just tell you that, maybe I just felt for the others that's why I ended up pouring all the outburst to one who does not know how to stop or place himself when it comes to some matters and jokes(you know what I mean). I cannot always internalize, I'm also a human being. That's why I just simply snapped-out a while ago. Hopefully, I can go away for a while, like what I have said, I cannot detain this anymore...

But forget about that crap, hopefully things will cool down...

As you can see in the image I am portraying a displeased Treat. I thought of doing another photo manipulation since I am bringing with me a box of Ferrero Rochers' and to my delight, I thought of a good concept, well maybe, not that good.

You see I enjoyed posing and enjoyed playing Photoshop, I guess this day wasn't so bad after all, unless I would recall that incident once more...but to hell with that crap...I'm just going to do what I'm supposed to do, maybe it's time for me to detach myself from them, too much of being such a teacher for me, I will no longer be as close as I used to be to them, my friends were right, It's time to detach and put the line...

'Til then ;-)

I'm losing it...

Well, another week has passed and another week is about to start. There were many things that happened. But nonetheless, the usual things happen. You know, obnoxious people, inconsiderate instances, plus you may also add the lack of you know...Consistency.

So much that had happened alright. I feel that I have lost the Love and Compassion to what I am doing now. Besides, we were taken for granted, I mean we were always taken for granted...

Hopefully within a few more days left, I will be able to decide if I am stayin' or I am totally leaving...for good. They can't blame me for such rage, at the first place we were assured of things that would help us...grow as individuals, you see, I feel for my colleagues who are standing at the same ground with me. It's not always what we say could be the basis, although we are all undergoing the same problem to where we are, still, there should be this little spark of consideration that should be vested upon us. I really don't want to feel this way, but I cannot detain it within me anymore, I'm already full of this, somehow I have to let go of all this...I am not really againts anyone here, but, I just have to be honest with what I am feeling, I am actually ashamed of myself because I don't get to share anything good or fun, but that's my fault and my choice. Either way, this too shall pass...

Maybe next time I can be off this track of Drama, anyhow, let's just pray that this week could be different, and guess what, as long as you are with me through this, I know, maybe I can still have the strength to stay, yes, you are the one that I am referring to, the one reading this right now, just hang on with me, your support can pull us out of this ;-)

It just hit me...Again!

Today seems to be one of them other days, Monday to be exact. This week has got me started once again. Guess what? It just hit me again...

I seem to have a good recollection of our Ethics class...You know, we were talking about the difference about personal and organizational work/function, meaning, you don't mix your personal works or tasks that has nothing to do with your office...Just a while ago, I managed to witness that scenario and hopefully god forgive me but, I was so pissed and turned-off to what I was seeing at the moment....

You see, you are responsible to what you put yourself into, and you may never call yourself a professional to the way you sometimes achieve your goals, with the way you would take advantage of the resources and manpower of another office or to the expense of others or how you may abuse your authority or even take the moment or others for granted...You may never have the right to feel bad, since, bottomline, your shortcomings are the least of our concern. To be honest I have been pretending to be deaf and mum about your doings, if you only knew, I have been seeing you do the same only, with different outputs and expectations...

You may be said to be great but, nonetheless, I am now so turned-off with you, as for me, all I could say, goodluck and may you submit to that on time, it looks like you need it the most but it is the least of all of our concern...I bet you are just deaf of the term "BOTHER". Hopefully, you could have realized that you managed to be our top "CAUSE OF DELAY" and you have a wrong comprehension of the term..."HELP"

These are my insights, done with my own efforts, good for you if get what I mean and Congratulations if you haven't got the point that I am actually pertaining to you...

Last words...You're Great...Definitely...

Guess what came into my mind...Again

Today's the month of March, 4th day to be exact. Today, there were so many thing that really took place, first, I nearly burned my face with SODIUM CHLORIDE, yeah you read that right... How? well, my student haven't wiped their table well which contains drops of Sodium Chloride, and as for me, How dumber can I get? I managed to have some on my fingers and guess what? I unknowingly wiped it on my face...(Now that's...yeah I'll just continue...) then i noticed the burning sensation and rushed towards the sink...Which thank god, contained barred powder soap, which neutralized the whole sensation(Hold-up, am I even sure about that?)

Then, again, for the nth time, I was, stressed-out...(You know the reason, but it varies...and those variations are actually...THE SAME!) But thank god, there were soime good stuff that happened today though(no need to mention those!)

Also, I was in the mood to do some Photo Shopping and I was able to create a photo manipulation and, I ended up spoofing an upcoming show of Marian Rivera entitled "Amaya". Instead I made my own upcoming show and it's call "Abaya"(As seen above), But that's not the only spoofing that I did, check this-out:

That was "Agua Bendita" starring Andi Eigenmann(Hopefully the spelling's correct), I also made my version then...

Hopefully, if there are some fans out there who would be able to see this post, please, do not be offended (Same with marian and Andi)...

Anyhow, That's all for now, 'Til the next post ;-)