I'm starting get a grip on things...for now

Today's the mark of another end. Today's the end of April, and guess what? a few more weeks and it's totally June!

It had been a month for me, well almost a lot happened, I have gained, and definitely I have lost, well, that's life, and it should somehow be balanced. You can't get new things without losing the others because in a way, life has its way of putting things into balance.

I have to admit that, everytime I hear news or see some of my friends, with the way they enjoy their life or with the way they get what they want, or with how simply lucky they are. I feel that I am left behind, I mean, I feel more envious, insecure, and inferior, but I came in to a realization... Maybe, it's not yet my time. Like what they say, sometimes what's in store for you is being saved and it will be at its grandest when you will have it. So all I am going to do for now is to simply wait. With that, again, they say that, "Good things happen to those who wait".

Also, recently, I'm in rants with my mom. I mean, she wants me to change my job, I can't blame her though, especially when she sees me having a hard time or sad. Good thing she has some backgrounds or let's be honest, connections, but, with what is happening right now, I should now show them them that my current career is not a mistake, maybe there's a reason why I am stuck to where I am right now because, I usually have a glimpse or experience with my dream careers but there's somehing unusual that pulls me back to where I am now, or maybe I should fulfill my words...

Well, this time I know what I want now...It's not money, not pleasure,but FULFILLMENT!

And again, let me just feature another photo of me and some of my friends:

This was actually taken during our R&R and we were all goofing around with my camera and tripod...

We'll I guess that will be all for now...

'Til my next post ;-)

Things as they are...for now :-|

We are about to reach this month's end and so many had happened previously...

I have been very busy definitely... I have reached the point of asking myself, "Do you want this? Can you handle it?" and "What about your promise? your fulfillment?" I was torn, definitely. I mean, in my current situation way back, I barely had anything to keep me going, I was ceasing to exist, and I was definitely, cheated or maybe taken for granted, that's why I had no choice but to look for the greener pasture. My search did become significant in a way, I was called in for an interview, I think the interview went well, and said to wait 3 days after...

During those times, I was happy but at the same time in regret, why in regret? I was torn between something I wanted all along and something I still wish to continue. I was definitely internalizing, weighing things down, maybe I was too angry at the situation that's why I reached to some point were I don't want to be caught in the middle, but I considered asking God for guidance and maybe he will direct to me to where he plans me to be as for the moment, so I indirectly asked for a sign to him. Guess what? God has a good way of directing us and showing us some answers, right?

I was at my sister's simple after grad get-together and I was with my cousins, chit-chatting, exchanging insights, and playing with the kids. On that night, I was ready to go for a firm move to take the road opened and let go of what held me together for the past months, in other words, I was ready to let go of my promise and take on a new chapter, but the the day came for me to receive the verdict, but there was no calls, e-mails, sms, or whatsoever.

I had to admit I was dissapointed or maybe frustrated, and looking back I was like "Just when I was ready to leave, I had to stop once more...". Sometimes, God has a funny way of letting you see through things(I meant that in a good way). I realized, maybe God is telling me that, now's not the right time, and my purpose on to where I am is not yet fulfilled. Right now, as I am typing this. I am feeling sad for some reasons, but happy for I have friends like these at the place where I am right now:

Although they may not be celebrities and all that, what matters to me is that, they are definitely real and easy to be with...

Anyhow, come what may, and I put it all into God's guidance now :-)

The other way around

First things first, I would like to greet you all, Happy April Fools! Today's the first day of April, and so much fooling happened for the moment, I mean, there were those who didn't appear who's supposed to appear and there were those who, have been so deceiving lately and lastly, there were some delays...

Although things are just starting to heat up for this month, let me share to you some things that I have learned on my own, again:

1. Step-out of your comfort zone

2. Just go with the flow (and never anticipate what will go next)

3. Expect the unexpected but not too much

4. Sometimes, you just have to give-in to end discussions

5. Just leave all those stress behind don't mind them (Literally)

6. Pray Until Something Happens

7. Focus, and you'll get there ;-)

8. Do not deprive yourself too much (Moderation is the Key)

9. Be Happy, even once in a while...

10. Patience is a virtue.

Also, Holy week is fast approaching. That means total repention and deliverance. Literally, that actually means no internet, meat, TV shows, and etc...

Anyhow, I just wanted to share that, I'll just update you guys by my next post, also in case you are interested on how I made my featured artwork, tell me and I'll be giving some Tutorials :-)