Things as they are...for now :-|

We are about to reach this month's end and so many had happened previously...

I have been very busy definitely... I have reached the point of asking myself, "Do you want this? Can you handle it?" and "What about your promise? your fulfillment?" I was torn, definitely. I mean, in my current situation way back, I barely had anything to keep me going, I was ceasing to exist, and I was definitely, cheated or maybe taken for granted, that's why I had no choice but to look for the greener pasture. My search did become significant in a way, I was called in for an interview, I think the interview went well, and said to wait 3 days after...

During those times, I was happy but at the same time in regret, why in regret? I was torn between something I wanted all along and something I still wish to continue. I was definitely internalizing, weighing things down, maybe I was too angry at the situation that's why I reached to some point were I don't want to be caught in the middle, but I considered asking God for guidance and maybe he will direct to me to where he plans me to be as for the moment, so I indirectly asked for a sign to him. Guess what? God has a good way of directing us and showing us some answers, right?

I was at my sister's simple after grad get-together and I was with my cousins, chit-chatting, exchanging insights, and playing with the kids. On that night, I was ready to go for a firm move to take the road opened and let go of what held me together for the past months, in other words, I was ready to let go of my promise and take on a new chapter, but the the day came for me to receive the verdict, but there was no calls, e-mails, sms, or whatsoever.

I had to admit I was dissapointed or maybe frustrated, and looking back I was like "Just when I was ready to leave, I had to stop once more...". Sometimes, God has a funny way of letting you see through things(I meant that in a good way). I realized, maybe God is telling me that, now's not the right time, and my purpose on to where I am is not yet fulfilled. Right now, as I am typing this. I am feeling sad for some reasons, but happy for I have friends like these at the place where I am right now:

Although they may not be celebrities and all that, what matters to me is that, they are definitely real and easy to be with...

Anyhow, come what may, and I put it all into God's guidance now :-)